away again

It's been about a month I haven't written anything here.
I've been through a lot lately; Lots of up and downs in my personal, health-wise, job-related, family-related and academic life, again! Sometimes I think I must be a very strong person to go through this once in a while and still be happy and positive.
He is still there; Still charming and attractive, still lovely, nice and supportive. Sometimes I feel he's all I want in this life since I can get anything with the power and positive energy I get from his presence. Sometimes, which is not very often, I feel that we are a world apart. That makes me to hold back and think. We both need more time to make sure about everything; Living together would make everything more clear.
I decided not to go to school this September. We are planning to move in together very soon and I need my time, money and energy to start this new life with him and I wont be able to concentrate on anything else for a while. Besides that, I'm working on myself which takes a huge part of my energy and concentration anyways. I feel that I'm growing everyday, changing a lot, turning and turning, seeing new things in life, experiencing new feelings and climbing up, in my own way.
It feels like I'm an eagle; Trying, struggling to take off from the earth. It's hard I know, it takes lots of time and energy and I might lose lots of feathers. But as soon as I hit the skies, wind will blow under my wings and I will be floating with no effort. I'm waiting for that day, will come soon I know.

Where am I?

So he kind of broke up with me on Wednesday night, called me on Friday night just to see how I was doing and telling me he loved me so much he couldn't possibly imagine I might get hurt in the future. I went out with this guy from the dating site that night, talked about him all through the "date", called him when I get in to my car and unleashed myself. He told me he is in love with me and he wants me so much. He said he just doesn't want me to get hurt.
I know he won't hurt me. He promised me not to. He loves me so much he could not possibly do that. That's what he tells me and that's what I keep telling myself so I get some peace of mind.
He is mine and he is going to be forever. That's my share of life and I will not let it go.