away again

It's been about a month I haven't written anything here.
I've been through a lot lately; Lots of up and downs in my personal, health-wise, job-related, family-related and academic life, again! Sometimes I think I must be a very strong person to go through this once in a while and still be happy and positive.
He is still there; Still charming and attractive, still lovely, nice and supportive. Sometimes I feel he's all I want in this life since I can get anything with the power and positive energy I get from his presence. Sometimes, which is not very often, I feel that we are a world apart. That makes me to hold back and think. We both need more time to make sure about everything; Living together would make everything more clear.
I decided not to go to school this September. We are planning to move in together very soon and I need my time, money and energy to start this new life with him and I wont be able to concentrate on anything else for a while. Besides that, I'm working on myself which takes a huge part of my energy and concentration anyways. I feel that I'm growing everyday, changing a lot, turning and turning, seeing new things in life, experiencing new feelings and climbing up, in my own way.
It feels like I'm an eagle; Trying, struggling to take off from the earth. It's hard I know, it takes lots of time and energy and I might lose lots of feathers. But as soon as I hit the skies, wind will blow under my wings and I will be floating with no effort. I'm waiting for that day, will come soon I know.